i'm thinking kris is more the senior at work whom he lusts after and then maybe spots at a gayclub somewhere and then works up the courage to approach but it turns out kris is, if possible, even more repressed and does not in any way want anything to do with tao although he sort of lusts after him as well but tao doesn't give up and continues to approach him although it's painful but he grows obsessed with the prospect of actually being in a relationship, of actually getting to be with someone and be himself with someone and having someone and he feels like kris is like the only way that this would ever happen. and kris can't rly reject him properly either bec he likes tao although he can't admit it to anyone, even to himself, but after a while ust has built up to the point where they have desperate, starved, guiltridden sex in kris' apartment.