aw anon i feel you. i really struggle with simply talking to people too. the best way i've found to deal with interviews is just preparation preparation preparation! if you act it out enough then it won't feel so scary. breathing techniques have really helped me as well. just doing everything you can to stay calm and focused. and at the end of the day, one interview isn't everything. if one goes badly, there will always be another one.

as for the other thing, no one should be trying to force you out esp your own mother. your sexuality is your own business. it's completely understandable to be upset about it. just try to not be so hard on yourself ;; we're here for you anon ♥