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part six
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whoa how did the feedback meme spread around when it was only pimped to kfandoms?
I HATE INTO YOUR WORLD I HATE IT SO MUCH I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT
I HATE IT
I HATE IT
http://pic.prepics-cdn.com/exoplanet/15223891.gif
anons, do you know where is this from? bc kris seems to be fapping and emoting to a song at the same time.
anons, do you know where is this from? bc kris seems to be fapping and emoting to a song at the same time.
so today while I was in class I suddenly started craving for lukai Christmas fic :(
i wish i was shameless enough to write a fic for aff. i could just write "narrator's pov" and put internal thoughts between asterisks and just sit back and relax.
http://exomeme.dreamwidth.org/2270.html?thread=6672350#cmt6672350
(Anonymous) 2012-12-12 11:07 pm (UTC)(link)step is krishan, but tbqh, it's more about the relationship among krislayhan ;; krishan gets the ~romantic development, but (as a layhan shipper shhh) layhan's friendship hits me more in the kokoro ;~; idk what you know already about step (have any of you guys seen the subbed fmv?? GO WATCH IT), but yixing has a super super super super strong influence on krishan.
i feel like tumblr being down is a sign i should stop procrastinating but instead i just keep refreshing tumblr @_@
has anyone on meme read or heard about the chinese fic hostility? lukai, chanhun, taoris, and laybaek. it's 100+ chapters, and it's a classic to the point where it has been published by the chinese fandom ;; super au and a bit ooc though since it was published near debut.
http://25.media.tumblr.com/9ab10604e3d22d4ad2cdaae1b2d141bc/tumblr_mepynmZlOY1qeuv2ko1_500.jpg
(Anonymous) 2012-12-13 12:39 am (UTC)(link)sigh wufan ):
http://ic.pics.livejournal.com/chryzeis/17049972/31157/31157_original.jpg lmao so who is qualified to become kris' senpai? Yunho?
lol rip tumblr. i'm not even bothered, just kind of irritated that i didn't save all my otp's gifs before
http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m7h2j8SOBP1qgroxz.gif (kaisoo) i don't have this bookmarked on my phone, nope definitely not
meme, I can't play the piano but I'm determined to learn angel for Christmas break \o/
anticipating the day a kai look-alike gay porno appears in which the look-alike actually gets fucked
do you ever forget that your parents have names? i had to look in my mom's phone to call my dad and i was so confused why there was no "dad" in her phone.
written for the angst scenario tao outgrowing kris but kris still trying to hang on on the last page. it's something i did spur of the moment so it's not great but i tried /o\
That Kris and Tao end up in a relationship is merely the natural progression of things. When they first debut, Tao is still inexperienced and sensitive and scared, while Kris is cool and confident and every inch of him a leader. Tao latches onto him and Kris lets him - he usually doesn’t like it when people cling to him too hard, but he finds he doesn’t mind it when it’s Tao, because he is sincere and doesn’t have a hateful bone in his body. Instead of being annoyed, he decides he likes it when Tao comes to him and asks, “Can I tell you something secret?” and he likes it when Tao says, “I’m glad that we met,” and he likes it when Tao blushes and confesses, “I think I’d like to kiss you.”
Kris has always known that theirs is a relationship formed with a careful balance: Tao needs somebody to rely on, and Kris needs somebody to need him. But what Kris realizes that Tao doesn’t is that the moment the balance shifts even slightly, the equilibrium is destroyed and that would be it for them, together. That this will someday happen is another inevitability, because Tao is shy, not unlikeable, and it’s only a matter of time before something in the equation changes.
It starts with Xiumin, and then Baekhyun, and after that the rest seem to come effortlessly. At night, when they lie sides pressed to each other, Tao tells him about lunch dates with Baekhyun, the dirty Korean words that Chanyeol and Sehun try to trick him into saying, the tips Kai and Lay give him on his dancing. Kris closes his eyes and has to remind himself that he should be proud of Tao, not jealous of Baekhyun.
“That’s great,” he says every time, and is glad that Tao can’t see his face, because his expression says something completely different: Don’t leave me. Don’t stop needing me. Don’t replace me. Tao never notices, nor was he ever meant to, and Kris knows he should let go now, but it’s not so easy to fall out of love with somebody who doesn’t yet realize that they are not meant to be.
- - -
The moment that Kris knows things have ended should have been one of the happiest moments of his life. They are on stage, and they have just received their first Triple Crown - he and Suho are pushed to the front to receive their award, and together they hold it up, grinning wildly, and around them the other ten are nearly breaking down with happiness. After he finishes giving a quick thank you speech, he is quickly engulfed by Chen and Lay in a group hug, which takes him a few moments to untangle from. The person he really wants to have by his side right now is Tao, and he wants to find him and squeeze his hand - he turns, expecting Tao to be there, but Kris looks around and realizes that he is all the way on the other side of the stage.
Kris convinces himself that it is not desperate to wait for Tao to maneuver his way through the crowd to him, grinning, and say something like, “We did it, we finally made it,” and hug him close, arms squeezing around his waist as if it is the only thing that can reassure him that the moment is real. Instead, he watches as Tao casually slings an arm around Baekhyun’s shoulders and tugs him close, eyes folding into half-moons as Chanyeol comes up from behind them, grinning, and shouts into their ears, “Congratulations, congratulations!” The air catches in Kris’s throat, and suddenly his chest feels strangely tight, and he can’t stop himself from thinking that instead of Baekhyun, it should be him.
It’s only when Chanyeol notices Kris looking over at them and nudges Tao slightly, whispering something into his ear, that Tao lets go of Baekhyun and makes his way across the stage. He stops next to Kris and tugs at his sleeve coyly and says, “The moment’s finally come, hasn’t it?” He smiles, but there’s nothing special in it: it’s the same sort of smile he gives to Lay or even Suho, genuine but missing that certain spark, the something special that comes with being in love.
Kris smiles back, pretends his heart is as hard as he wishes it were, and tries to remind himself that this, too, is merely the natural progression of things. “It has,” he replies, and wishes that he could make himself look away.
That Kris and Tao end up in a relationship is merely the natural progression of things. When they first debut, Tao is still inexperienced and sensitive and scared, while Kris is cool and confident and every inch of him a leader. Tao latches onto him and Kris lets him - he usually doesn’t like it when people cling to him too hard, but he finds he doesn’t mind it when it’s Tao, because he is sincere and doesn’t have a hateful bone in his body. Instead of being annoyed, he decides he likes it when Tao comes to him and asks, “Can I tell you something secret?” and he likes it when Tao says, “I’m glad that we met,” and he likes it when Tao blushes and confesses, “I think I’d like to kiss you.”
Kris has always known that theirs is a relationship formed with a careful balance: Tao needs somebody to rely on, and Kris needs somebody to need him. But what Kris realizes that Tao doesn’t is that the moment the balance shifts even slightly, the equilibrium is destroyed and that would be it for them, together. That this will someday happen is another inevitability, because Tao is shy, not unlikeable, and it’s only a matter of time before something in the equation changes.
It starts with Xiumin, and then Baekhyun, and after that the rest seem to come effortlessly. At night, when they lie sides pressed to each other, Tao tells him about lunch dates with Baekhyun, the dirty Korean words that Chanyeol and Sehun try to trick him into saying, the tips Kai and Lay give him on his dancing. Kris closes his eyes and has to remind himself that he should be proud of Tao, not jealous of Baekhyun.
“That’s great,” he says every time, and is glad that Tao can’t see his face, because his expression says something completely different: Don’t leave me. Don’t stop needing me. Don’t replace me. Tao never notices, nor was he ever meant to, and Kris knows he should let go now, but it’s not so easy to fall out of love with somebody who doesn’t yet realize that they are not meant to be.
The moment that Kris knows things have ended should have been one of the happiest moments of his life. They are on stage, and they have just received their first Triple Crown - he and Suho are pushed to the front to receive their award, and together they hold it up, grinning wildly, and around them the other ten are nearly breaking down with happiness. After he finishes giving a quick thank you speech, he is quickly engulfed by Chen and Lay in a group hug, which takes him a few moments to untangle from. The person he really wants to have by his side right now is Tao, and he wants to find him and squeeze his hand - he turns, expecting Tao to be there, but Kris looks around and realizes that he is all the way on the other side of the stage.
Kris convinces himself that it is not desperate to wait for Tao to maneuver his way through the crowd to him, grinning, and say something like, “We did it, we finally made it,” and hug him close, arms squeezing around his waist as if it is the only thing that can reassure him that the moment is real. Instead, he watches as Tao casually slings an arm around Baekhyun’s shoulders and tugs him close, eyes folding into half-moons as Chanyeol comes up from behind them, grinning, and shouts into their ears, “Congratulations, congratulations!” The air catches in Kris’s throat, and suddenly his chest feels strangely tight, and he can’t stop himself from thinking that instead of Baekhyun, it should be him.
It’s only when Chanyeol notices Kris looking over at them and nudges Tao slightly, whispering something into his ear, that Tao lets go of Baekhyun and makes his way across the stage. He stops next to Kris and tugs at his sleeve coyly and says, “The moment’s finally come, hasn’t it?” He smiles, but there’s nothing special in it: it’s the same sort of smile he gives to Lay or even Suho, genuine but missing that certain spark, the something special that comes with being in love.
Kris smiles back, pretends his heart is as hard as he wishes it were, and tries to remind himself that this, too, is merely the natural progression of things. “It has,” he replies, and wishes that he could make himself look away.
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