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part two hundred and thirteen
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prompt 1
team sehun [c] - chansoo breakup
(Anonymous) 2014-07-10 08:24 am (UTC)(link)Kyungsoo doesn't cry. He's not much of a crier, and he never has been. He tries not to let his emotions get the best of him. He doesn't want to let himself be vulnerable.
So he doesn't cry, at first. He lets Chanyeol say all the words that cut deepest: you're never there for me, I don't think you really care about me, and the worst of all: I've found someone else. He lets Chanyeol walk out of his life, carrying the little piece of Kyungsoo's heart that had been sectioned off just for him with him, taking half of the clothes out of the dressers and half of the life out of their apartment.
Chanyeol leaves, but Kyungsoo doesn't cry.
He doesn't cry when he finds a picture of he and Chanyeol from their first date. Chanyeol took him to an amusement park, bought him popcorn and cotton candy and then took him onto a huge roller coaster and almost made he throw up. Chanyeol bought the shitty little photo that came out of them screaming their heads off, and Kyungsoo rolled his eyes. But he was silently pleased.
He was always silently pleased.
He puts that picture in a box and stores it under his bed and doesn't think about that if Chanyeol found that picture now, he'd probably throw it away. He'd probably burn it. He'd probably show it to his new boyfriend and laugh at the stupid expression on Kyungsoo's face.
Kyungsoo doesn't cry when he's putting on a clean set of sheets and notices that they're the sheets that had been on for he and Chanyeol's first time. Kyungsoo remembers because Kyungsoo has always been sentimental--silently. He puts the sheets on the bed and doesn't cry as he thinks about the way that Chanyeol had pressed him back against the mattress, placed kisses down the slope of his neck and down his tummy and even further, fucked Kyungsoo on these sheets nice and slow, just like Kyungsoo liked it, with a hand right over Kyungsoo's heart. Like he was holding that too.
Kyungsoo gets a bill for the rent, and he doesn't cry thinking about Chanyeol's big, happy smile when he'd suggested moving in together. The way Chanyeol hadn't wanted to split the dressers, he'd wanted to share them. The way that Chanyeol would always turn their toothbrushes so they faced each other and touched--kissing, Chanyeol would say. The way that Chanyeol cuddled him to sleep, even though Kyungsoo would complain and squirm and overheat. He would trace his hands along the edge of Kyungsoo's tummy, tickling until he got a smile out of him. Maybe even a laugh.
Kyungsoo sees a picture of Chanyeol on Facebook, and he doesn't cry about how happy he looks. He doesn't cry thinking about how he used to be the one to make Chanyeol that happy. Chanyeol was always easily pleased. All it ever took was a smile, a few words of appreciation, running his fingers through Chanyeol's hair and pressing a small kiss to the corner of his lips. Those were the things that made Chanyeol happy, and Kyungsoo doesn't cry thinking about he couldn't give Chanyeol enough of those things. He doesn't cry thinking about how he'll never see one of Chanyeol's smiles aimed at him ever again. He doesn't cry thinking about how he'll never hear Chanyeol's loud and overpowering and not-so-obnoxious, despite what Kyungsoo always said, laughter.
Kyungsoo doesn't cry for a long time. He goes through life almost normally, and even though he thinks about Chanyeol a lot, he doesn't cry over him.
It's not until a month later, when Kyungsoo sees Kim Jongin again, that he really cries.
Kim Jongin, his ex-boyfriend, who he had dated in High School and dumped when he went off to college because he didn't care enough to keep up a long distance relationship. Jongin was cute, but Kyungsoo hadn't cared enough to try, hadn't cared enough to even keep in contact. And when he sees Jongin now, all these years later, he feels nothing. He doesn't feel regret, or sadness, or pity, or even any fondness deep in the pit of his stomach.
And when he returns home, he shuts himself in his bedroom and cries, wracking sobs that shake his entire body. Because he knows in a few years, in a few months, or maybe now--that's how Chanyeol will feel about him. He'll see Chanyeol, just passing by on the street, and it will shock him with the force of how much he misses him. He'll see Chanyeol, and he'll think about all of their happy times and everything they did together and he'll remember everything little piece of Chanyeol and every little scar on Chanyeol's body and every sound Chanyeol ever made.
And when Chanyeol sees him, all those years later, he will feel nothing.
Kyungsoo buries himself under the covers and sobs, soaking through the material of the sheets that he and Chanyeol once shared.
Re: team sehun [c] - chansoo breakup
(Anonymous) 2014-07-10 08:32 am (UTC)(link)Re: team sehun [c] - chansoo breakup
(Anonymous) 2014-07-10 09:47 am (UTC)(link)Re: team sehun [c] - chansoo breakup
(Anonymous) 2014-07-22 06:48 pm (UTC)(link)