i've been battling depression for nearly 10 years, & yes, i had a lot of suicidal thoughts. Medication and therapy helps me a lot anon. I went to a few different psychiatrist until i find my current dr that i thought listened to me best, and i can trully follow their advice. My first few dr were quite dismissive of my concern & problem and i really felt at time it was the end, but my family did not give up on me, they brought me to another psychiatrist, and then another until i find my current dr. Dont be afraid anon. at one point, you will feel you're at your lowest point, but somehow, it'll get better.